tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-78621436799589214362024-03-20T13:53:31.960-05:00I'm losing it, and learning to live a healthy life!Please join me on my journey to a healthier me. Some people may think I'm obsessed, but I prefer to think of myself as dedicated. Yes, there will be drama, there will be silliness and there will be struggles, but by golly there will also be dancing!Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.comBlogger147125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-38779457175027238482011-04-15T10:53:00.001-05:002011-04-15T11:19:54.043-05:00Wow!First I don't want to sound like a broken record, but I can never say thank you enough for my health. I have always been able to plow through anything in a short amount of time but this one was different. So happy to feel good again, in fact I am now walking 3.5 on my 3 breaks at work, and I have never felt better. <br />
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I love my new iphone and the best app ever is I map my walk. So here goes, I will try to post my walking each time on my blog.<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjduLt1KlghjvNUpC1XlqRdQnMbgPxfQ0XOtDZIS-TBPtSgUCmwQRVVb-Mof6eZlO2s7o1jKNoCv6moq-MOPQYjyGjehcoaDGDi-bJauso-PhIn5AnkgVZ8QLMTZopHL08F57R-29EYZHI/s1600/walking+trail.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" r6="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjduLt1KlghjvNUpC1XlqRdQnMbgPxfQ0XOtDZIS-TBPtSgUCmwQRVVb-Mof6eZlO2s7o1jKNoCv6moq-MOPQYjyGjehcoaDGDi-bJauso-PhIn5AnkgVZ8QLMTZopHL08F57R-29EYZHI/s1600/walking+trail.jpg" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;">Not a bad place to walk, and it's free. I love, love, love to walk!</div>Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-68917311091579572302011-04-04T12:59:00.001-05:002011-04-04T15:27:01.739-05:00It feels so good...to feel good.I was almost to the point of thinking this day would never come. I have been a relatively well person for almost 10 days. My energy is coming back, and unfortunately my appetite has returned as well. The last month or so, I felt so bad that I would eat only things that appealed to me, which of course were all unhealthy. Sick as I was it did not affect me and I still lost weight. Now I am struggling to get back to my healthy lifestyle, and I am craving those foods I didn't indulge in before (at least not every day) :) Oh well if I can do it once, I can do it again. <br />
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<ul><li>First things first, I need to plan my menu, then journal it. </li>
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<ul><li>Second I need to Walk, Walk, Walk! </li>
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<ul><li>Third I need to be kind to my body.</li>
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Loving points plus, loving fruit, now the veggies that's another story, for another day!Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-24074207031351790942011-03-31T14:00:00.000-05:002011-03-31T14:00:15.837-05:00It's been a long time coming!<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I am back. I have no idea what all happened in my life the past 6 months, I just know I was sicker than I have ever been. I have been to more doctors in the past 6 months than I have been to in my entire life. Most of the time they spent eliminating things that wasn't wrong with me :( of course that does nothing for the problem at hand, except in my case it made it worse. Finally after an MRI, 3 x-rays numerous blood tests, it was diagnosed as Pneumonia. The antibiotics were terrible and left very bad side affects but I finally began to stop coughing so much.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"> My eating habits have been so bad during this time, but in spite of this I lost 15 pounds, but I now have my appetite back along with the bad habits. So it is time to get serious.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><strong>I am going to <strike>try to</strike> start exercising and eating right today.</strong></span>Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-54952767975616081962011-02-21T10:22:00.002-06:002011-02-21T10:28:42.765-06:00She Lives!This has been a rough 5 months but I think I <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">may</span> be on my way back. I can breathe, I am not coughing constantly, and my headaches are manageable.<br /><br />Still hanging in there on the Weight loss and healthy eating part of my life. I lost all the weight the steroids put on me and I am trying to get serious about the points plus program.<br /><br />Day one: I feel better, I will <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">attempt</span> to eat better, and when I get a little more strength I will exercise.<br /><span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-error">Yay</span>....Bring on day two!Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-61475054942823050072010-12-12T16:17:00.002-06:002010-12-12T16:21:16.810-06:00Yes, I am still sick.I almost didn't post because it is just to depressing. Oh well, the thing is I can usually find a way to make things better, and I am trying but it seems the doctors can't find out what is wrong with me. I am not giving up, but I am through being a research tool as well. Just trying to enjoy the good days now, and hoping for many more. :) Also hoping for normal again.Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-87224943930221517882010-10-23T16:13:00.001-05:002010-10-23T16:15:33.154-05:00sick :(Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-28109755139860535412010-10-07T12:46:00.007-05:002010-10-07T13:23:40.799-05:00Winning BattlesLately I have won more battles than I have lost,<br />but I have lost to many to count. Small victories<br />really add up, and while I do believe that I can eat<br />anything I want (within reason), I really want to make<br />the healthy choice. Sometimes it is a battle (in my own mind)<br />and sometimes it is just easy. That is what I want more than<br />anything along this journey. I just want to " want to do this."<br /><br /><br />Today I was in the snack shack at work, and I really thought about<br />getting this candy bar. It is only one point per square. It has 5 squares<br />and it is a dark chocolaty goodness. I picked it up and carried it around<br />to make sure this is what I wanted,<br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhTEUhuiETPifAZ_Kvm-SYTS3n9-4ioNtKJ5a1aORwE_6D3flXkCASxjl_c0u6N6hW1vycQykAYasDTMPcP3yjFlQqLWsK5CH0LMiPipX6NSLoZTTHPL0SgvUst0GlrydjTpgJUoFPZruA/s1600/choco.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 117px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5525363164108368354" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhTEUhuiETPifAZ_Kvm-SYTS3n9-4ioNtKJ5a1aORwE_6D3flXkCASxjl_c0u6N6hW1vycQykAYasDTMPcP3yjFlQqLWsK5CH0LMiPipX6NSLoZTTHPL0SgvUst0GlrydjTpgJUoFPZruA/s200/choco.jpg" /></a><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div>and then I saw this!<br /><div>And I wanted it... <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">Yay</span>!!!!<br /></div><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkjYPBtUOIAOw1qIol-XaTtbktPwM-bExWsKsZgUZams1Z-HmrDvJvrDPBP_SRYSLbff4hwhWj7v9A4SnAy3OU_Aa6cloNEtRKK_8GZduPAdDgoWsFAWybk1-IX6jRxAxEo7Z6ctI-ygc/s1600/banana.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 151px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5525362683923882754" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkjYPBtUOIAOw1qIol-XaTtbktPwM-bExWsKsZgUZams1Z-HmrDvJvrDPBP_SRYSLbff4hwhWj7v9A4SnAy3OU_Aa6cloNEtRKK_8GZduPAdDgoWsFAWybk1-IX6jRxAxEo7Z6ctI-ygc/s200/banana.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><br /><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div>So today this is how it went:</div><div></div><div>Dark Chocolate Candy.... $1.07</div><div></div><div>Banana... $ .55</div><div></div><div>Winning the battle... Priceless</div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div><span style="font-size:78%;">eta: I do realize that chocolate is not unhealthy</span></div></div>Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-18895883904073744612010-09-30T10:35:00.003-05:002010-09-30T10:51:29.381-05:00Making ChoicesJust one minute at a time lately, or so it seems. I can be absolutely on track and doing fine and the next minute I am off center. Not off track, not going forward or backward, but off just a little. It is enough though, to make you crazy.<br /><br />I have this sever sinus infection and I got a shot of <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">steroids</span>, (give me more) not really! On one hand I feel tons better, I have more energy than I have had in weeks, and I know it is short term, but.... I can be breezing along feeling perfectly full and the next thing I know I am hunting for food....(not good for you food). <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Fortunately</span> the antibiotics make me a little <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">nauseous</span> or I would be in real trouble.<br /><br />I wish there was a way to feel this way without the <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">steroids</span> and there dangerous side affects....Oh wait there is, exercise! When I am well and I can beat my body into submission I feel this same way after I exercise, so why the heck do I avoid it so much? I am going to have to give this some major think time, maybe I just had a light bulb moment. I hope I can keep the light on long enough to make that thought a part of me.Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-2647220361313339302010-09-29T09:35:00.004-05:002010-09-29T10:09:30.839-05:00Into every life a little rain must fall...enough with the rain!It is not raining here, not real rain anyway, but it is pouring lately and frankly I can hardly keep my head above the water. I have managed to make good choices most of the time but I have also made some really bad ones.<br /><br />It seems like every time I push reset, bad things happen. Just as I was starting to gain control my mom fell and broke her hip. I had to travel to her hometown and stay in the hospital with her for 3 days and nights. I only left for some, dare I say "Jack in the Box!" I haven't had a Jack in the box taco since I left California, over 3o years ago. Wow, my memory served me well it was just the same taste, I loved every bite, but I only had one. One fried taco, who knows the calories but it was such a memory pleaser. Then back at the hospital I had pastries from Starbucks to mornings in a row. Back home... and I came down with a severe sinus infection ugh! So I am struggling to get back to my normal.<br /><br />Blues, Bikes and Barb-Q.....Oh my, I forgot I have a family of bikers staying with me this weekend, What a life.Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-55019831289770764762010-09-13T18:13:00.002-05:002010-09-13T18:30:33.644-05:00Roll with the punches.<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZdP8dqHOaossMnBqSxOPXsGsMlIk_kiD1QcMqlikI09skCpYU6yInYA80HGw72bzK4PIOPeOJ6wMDcmVmmvU0d0bthvxs8lH-bJR55dobbV4_l78jyhDjW93SrTohV2R705WDcd65F5c/s1600/grandparentsday-1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5516540526378910322" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZdP8dqHOaossMnBqSxOPXsGsMlIk_kiD1QcMqlikI09skCpYU6yInYA80HGw72bzK4PIOPeOJ6wMDcmVmmvU0d0bthvxs8lH-bJR55dobbV4_l78jyhDjW93SrTohV2R705WDcd65F5c/s400/grandparentsday-1.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>Today was Grandparents day at my <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">granddaughters</span> school. I am a new grandparent so I was really looking forward to this day, lunch not so much. Walking down the hall I knew I was in trouble, my stomach started to turn. I'm not sure what I was smelling but it didn't smell like food. When we entered the cafeteria my <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">granddaughter</span> was looking around for us, when she spotted us she had the biggest grin on her face, kinda like the one in the photo. We got our tray and my sweet husband just took whatever they served him, however I told the lunch lady I could not resist the big hot rolls so I had better forgo the lunch. I must add the the roll was d<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">elicious</span> but the rest of the meal... lets just say it did not look like people food. I didn't know that <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Kaylei</span> was bringing her lunch or I could have packed one for myself, I will do that the next time. It was a good day, I figured the roll was probably 4 points and I was full so it all worked out. I am doing better for now, I just take it one day at a time, make the best choice I can. It's working :)</div>Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-44063250758767947322010-09-09T08:54:00.004-05:002010-09-09T09:31:14.515-05:00"It is Well"It's one thing to say "it is well" when you are standing on your feet, it's quite another to say "it is well" when you are struggling. Having been knocked off my feet for a while now, I can only boast of not doing well. It seems that unless I have a steady stream of normal I don't do well with my healthy lifestyle. A bump in the road, can throw me to the curb quick. I really am trying to change this about me, even though I know this will probably be the biggest hurdle ever in my attempt to change bad habits. Some call it emotional eating, but for me its not really that, its anything that sidetracks me or causes me discomfort.<br /><br />I hate that when someone says something negative to me, that I let it affect me so easily. In the past that one thing would send me to the snack drawer, not so much now, but it does a little more damage than I would like. I want so much to be able to say, well those are your thoughts, sorry you feel that way, and still feel like "it is well".<br /><br />I am working on it, and I am gaining ground.<br /><br />Yesterday I went to a scheduled luncheon, took the cheese off my Pannini passed on the chips, skipped dessert and walked out with an "it is well" attitude. I didn't feel an ounce of self pity that I could not have those things because I really did not want them. That is progress, and I am for the first time in a while feeling good about my lifestyle changes.<br /><br />So when the next not normal thing knocks me to the ground, I am hoping I can look up from where I landed and say "it is well" and mean it.Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-80991715896882273972010-09-06T10:50:00.005-05:002010-09-07T10:47:26.806-05:00Changing Habits!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgq7lepeAgKZDep3EV2O7LHp3Deul4biFXlaYccIKXf2obP-h_fQp1YGrDpAeT-raxNAqmIrazq59ivBghs8UBjJJhQt8ZqkbeSgfAEoYOqSFtaoYkZgKGMvOlYRy9mXmBBfW-e-igmp4k/s1600/habits.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5513829548261042322" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgq7lepeAgKZDep3EV2O7LHp3Deul4biFXlaYccIKXf2obP-h_fQp1YGrDpAeT-raxNAqmIrazq59ivBghs8UBjJJhQt8ZqkbeSgfAEoYOqSFtaoYkZgKGMvOlYRy9mXmBBfW-e-igmp4k/s320/habits.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><p align="left"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQOYSwrSb37STCsg99kYD7WTfFgF9dHDtV_Q7XJ9WS6Z8004tjPIsb6HY08GyVGVNtKtoxuizACERbhOc88VizRWs8MQ2_3l3z82_343d1iMBsvxRZ5-3pkuDS8yV28KjFys85GpdOBoo/s1600/habits.jpg"></a></p>This week I am focusing on changing habits. I have noticed one fact since I began blogging, much of my bad food control issues are just bad habits. I say "<strong> just</strong>" as if that were just another word that is placed in front of another. It is not, I know that it is probably going to be the hardest thing I will overcome in this journey to live a healthy life. First I have to take a long look at the habits that control my behavior, that's going to be fun....not, oh well I will attempt to do this for the next few weeks and I will start it off with a big one.<br /><br /><ol><br /><li>Water........I need to drink more, I need to start drinking when I first get up. </li><br /><li>Exercising... Walking when I make this a habit, I love it. When I stop, I don't want to restart.<br /></li><br /><li>One to break, spending to much time on the computer. ( that is going to be a hard one)</li><br /><li>Planning my menu! This is a must!!</li><br /><li>And last but most important for me is tracking my food. </li></ol><p>All of the things I have listed above are not that hard for me to do for awhile, but when anything comes along to sidetrack me it is so difficult to start again. I want these habits to become second nature to me. This is my goal, and this is my hope for this year. </p><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div align="center"></div>Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-86537399169627216732010-08-30T18:57:00.007-05:002010-08-30T19:56:00.904-05:00Friend Makin Monday!Thanks for the opportunity to share a little about myself. I think the longer I live the more I realize that being honest with yourself keeps changing. When I was in my twenty's, I prided myself on being real. In my thirty's, I really felt lost. My forty's were the same, it seemed like the things I believed to be true kept changing. Now I know that I am not lost, sometimes confused, sometimes confounded, but not lost. I know that even at my age, (I'm not telling) I am still learning, I hope I never quit learning. Today at work a co-worker made fun of me for my love of gadgets, and my desire to connect in some way through my Internet friends. She actually said I was to old to be involved in such foolishness. It just made me smile, because I will never be ashamed for being made to feel like less than I am because I love to learn. I love my ipad, I can't wait to upgrade to an iphone. I love blogging and I don't think it is ever to late to make good habits.<br /><br />This week Kenz with <a href="http://alltheweigh2009.blogspot.com/2010/08/friend-makin-mondays-back-to-basics.html">All the Weigh</a> is hosting FMM. If you want to play along this week link up with Kenz and for all future weeks visit Amber at <a href="http://amberfilkins.blogspot.com/">The Silver Lining</a> to find out who's hosting FMM<br /><br /><br /><strong>I like</strong> myself most of the time<br /><strong>I don't</strong> like prejudice<br /><strong>I love</strong> my family with my whole heart<br /><strong>I dream</strong> of being young again and being smarter.<br /><strong>I wonder</strong> if I will ever make the right choices ( food and exercise) consistently.<br /><strong>I know</strong> I can do this.<br /><strong>I went</strong> to New York to meet friends, all by myself and had the time of my life.<br /><strong>I have</strong> always wanted to be smaller.<br /><strong>I think</strong> to much, to often and about things that really don't matter.<br /><strong>I plan</strong> to go on a road trip next year.<br /><strong>I regret</strong> wasting time<br /><strong>I do</strong> (I did and I always will love my hubby)<br /><strong>I drink</strong> water with all my meals, It is so hard for me to drink it all day long.<br /><strong>I wish</strong> I had worried less and trusted more.<br /><strong>I am</strong> very creative<br /><strong>I am not</strong> organized (but I long to be)<br /><strong>I need</strong> affection<br /><strong>I graduated</strong> high school when I was 25 because the school made an error on my transcript.My husband insisted that I go back and finish, turns out when I got my transcript I had 10 credits more than I needed to graduate. I flunked my entrance exam in college and entered on probation. I was on the presidents list from that time on. Yay me!!!<br /><strong>I hope</strong> my husband stays well.<br /><strong>I want</strong> more, I always want more.<br /><strong>I sometimes</strong> wish I could have adopted another child.<br /><strong>I always</strong> depend on my husband instead of doing things for myself.<br /><strong>I work</strong> for insurance, otherwise I would be shopping, or traveling or going to concerts and screaming like I was 12.<br /><strong>I cannot</strong> stand to be late<br /><strong>I avoid</strong> trouble.<br /><strong>I will never</strong> give up!Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-5147082656367988792010-08-16T09:05:00.004-05:002010-08-16T21:29:53.834-05:00Give me a break!Learning to live a healthy lifestyle, give me a break! Who do I think I am kidding here. Not me that's for sure. I have learned some things that have stuck with me, I do know that if I don't exercise, I will not lose, and I also know that even if I exercise and eat right, I am not gonna lose this weight fast. My fat is cement, I struggle to lose even a pound, and it has been that way for years. I can walk 5 miles eat only my allotted points and still only lose one pound. To say that is frustrating is putting it mildly. I read blogs and talk to friends all the time that consistently lose 2-3 or 4 founds a week, but for me that is not to be. I know, I know one pound is not all that bad, but it is when you have <strong>LHLWADD</strong>... I have been doing some research lately about ADD and the symptoms:<br />"zoning out” without realizing it<br />"extreme distractibility"<br />"struggling to complete a goal, no matter what the prize"<br />"tendency to overlook the seriousness of the situation"<br />When it comes to other areas of my life, this is in no way fits me. When it comes to my Living Healthy and Losing Weight "<strong>LHLW</strong>" I have four out of four symptoms. :(<br />I really need to understand this and I really need to deal with it. Like now!<br /><br />I have been reading a blog from <a href="http://losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com/">Sean</a><a href="http://losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com/"> </a>in Oklahoma for about a year, today these words he wrote kicked me in the gut. It is what I have always known, but can't make this choice and stick to it. All I can say is please God, let me choose this, help me choose this. I want this so bad!<br /><br /><em>The difference between this being a struggle and being an enjoyable road all the way---is completely between our ears. It is a friendship with food, an understanding---it's just living---simplifying the process...and realizing that we can do this in a most enjoyable way that will leave us wondering what the trouble was all of those years. The trouble is always what WE make it. The limitations, the rules, the frustrations---we choose it all...it's perspective. It's letting go of every excuse or rationalization that have always held us back. It's no longer being the "victim." It's choosing change before change chooses us. It's a very powerful idea. Empowering. It's deciding that this is too important to allow any emotion, circumstance, person, place, or thing steal it away from us. We deserve this freedom---it's ours if we choose to make it one of the most important things we've ever done. The importance level MUST be set that high, because if it isn't---it becomes too easy to just say..."oh well, we'll try again some other time." Make this the <strong>LAST TIME</strong>. Because if we don't---"someday" will come anyway---and changes will choose us---and if it's not on our terms, we're probably not going to like those changes. Choose the change you've always dreamed about. You're completely free to fly my friend!!!!!!!</em><br /><em></em><br /><em>I want to fly, I want to be happy when I fly, I want this to be as important to me as breathing, as being faithful to my husband, as being faithful to the God I serve. </em><br /><em>Thank you <a href="http://losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com/">Sean</a>, for these words.... I will read them everyday until it becomes my truth, and I will make the choices I need to change my life forever. </em>Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-66316369479388158102010-08-12T20:13:00.001-05:002010-08-12T20:13:57.683-05:00Posting from my iPad .....This could be my undoingBettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-56574044282686867022010-08-09T12:22:00.005-05:002010-08-09T12:45:32.072-05:00My new toy!<div align="left"><span style="font-size:180%;">I am loving it!</span><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhwuj8DBtiwcYWi-tqldn889NTp54nhnV_036aLbvtN86bfageYBNAdMkamNTTaEExOOXnqH8nDmwWQHxvNhPiKSNJMX_kBse4R6VG_GAmxrZYh8Z9H_ShaRSyIHr49zuePnYqPXFGlioI/s1600/images.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 275px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 183px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5503462398104222514" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhwuj8DBtiwcYWi-tqldn889NTp54nhnV_036aLbvtN86bfageYBNAdMkamNTTaEExOOXnqH8nDmwWQHxvNhPiKSNJMX_kBse4R6VG_GAmxrZYh8Z9H_ShaRSyIHr49zuePnYqPXFGlioI/s320/images.jpg" /></a><br /></div><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">It was a hard decision whether to buy the iPhone4 or the <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">ipad</span>, I think I made the right choice. Lots of apps, and to-do lists, and things to keep me centered. I added my fitness pal, and a few recipe sites. The main thing I like about it is it is helping me keep more organized. I need that, not to mention the fact that I don't eat when I am playing and that's a good thing. Everyday on the top of my to-do list is to exercise, every day I avoid that one like the plague. I don't delete it or take it off, I just avoid it. My goal for now is not only eating healthy but facing the things I don't like to do, and finding a way to love them again. It is so hot here now I can't even think of doing anything outdoors. So wish me luck as I try to get back in the groove. </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">If you know of any apps that might help me in my <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Journey please post :)</span></span>Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-16217809001898339682010-08-06T09:50:00.003-05:002010-08-06T10:27:05.885-05:00I don't handle stress well, the good kind or the bad kind.<div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">My Husband Earl at Lake Tahoe </span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">(beauty in the midst of fear)</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;"></span> </div><div align="center"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8BOP0Rulf7xFJqpWVrG6xSEmRll9pOiBpN58zkmQirnmRmlB8MpTury9Y9f3YgUf6iWDRH1l62-8QXcCQAEnNf3sVSJDxOTPc-9p4vnzJNY7cXy3AREu-MLBUohFyuch1nqIUtr-bnoM/s1600/Jul_27_2010_0650.JPG"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5502310381877906386" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8BOP0Rulf7xFJqpWVrG6xSEmRll9pOiBpN58zkmQirnmRmlB8MpTury9Y9f3YgUf6iWDRH1l62-8QXcCQAEnNf3sVSJDxOTPc-9p4vnzJNY7cXy3AREu-MLBUohFyuch1nqIUtr-bnoM/s320/Jul_27_2010_0650.JPG" /></a><span style="font-size:130%;"> In June we found out my husbands brother had stage four lung cancer. We were at the same time preparing for my son's wedding. It was so hard to balance joy...fear... and faith at the same time. I don't handle stress well at all, so my healthy eating habits took leave of me. It was replaced with fast food, junk snacks and no exercise. It is not easy to live that lifestyle, not the healthy lifestyle, but the unhealthy lifestyle. I felt sick and tired most of the time. I am so ready to get back on track. I just need to start and I am quite certain as soon as I do something will be there to tempt me to take the not-so-easy-way-out.<br /></span></div><div align="center"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9_rjeZGYbY26MC1RDEs9nBTAdc3am_nKdJ5pdDb8LLynmbbdLGgSO9g5RGd_kjrdeT2sz_tz0XEX7psYlOENDy9yN641b_YlRcjDHzpTFhxF9ieV22gc8qzkstLMSEPyUVOlpVFzrpzU/s1600/joshandbrandi053.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 213px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5502310245596029682" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9_rjeZGYbY26MC1RDEs9nBTAdc3am_nKdJ5pdDb8LLynmbbdLGgSO9g5RGd_kjrdeT2sz_tz0XEX7psYlOENDy9yN641b_YlRcjDHzpTFhxF9ieV22gc8qzkstLMSEPyUVOlpVFzrpzU/s320/joshandbrandi053.jpg" /></a> <span style="font-size:130%;">This is my son, his bride and their two lovely daughters. I am now and instant Grandmother. I could not be happier about that. They are the so cute and so sweet. I already love them to pieces. So amidst the stress of learning of Earl's brother, making travel plans for him to visit him and planning a wedding in just a few weeks I have let it sidetrack me and that's not a good thing. </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">Don, is doing a little better, and hopefully he will start treatments soon. Please say a prayer for him. We hope to plan another trip to Lake Tahoe and visit him in the near future. </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">My son and his family are doing good, and the University will be back in full swing in a couple of weeks, so hopefully I will get a grip on things and learn to handle stress without taking what seems to be the easy way out. It is not easy, and I need to somehow come to realize this. </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">This blog is my attempt to keep it honest, and honestly I have failed much of this year. I am making changes and it starts today! <br /></span><br /><br /><br /></div>Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-14936666930086582432010-07-19T08:50:00.006-05:002010-07-19T10:34:09.242-05:00My Hero!!!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgxRl2Ae_DgYdef8VA6GBel5UHsiSQZPra-ksQWqWxKO2sqwanezwy33BEwJdPPWkOuYVmZDe6xCWvV2Ah1WOEsMsYxLqDU3oxQpyPxKDQiibTIPblGZSBBbYDcDGix5dtZEHBR2MKlrUg/s1600/kyliemyhero-3.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 310px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5495616402951209218" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgxRl2Ae_DgYdef8VA6GBel5UHsiSQZPra-ksQWqWxKO2sqwanezwy33BEwJdPPWkOuYVmZDe6xCWvV2Ah1WOEsMsYxLqDU3oxQpyPxKDQiibTIPblGZSBBbYDcDGix5dtZEHBR2MKlrUg/s320/kyliemyhero-3.jpg" /></a><br /><div><strong><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;"></span></strong><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4iI6G2jUaM7uw4iMWiBwIBiznCGAkHnCGFKd2cTqSDVAvyVjNnxVvV9dfMaza4aw-o9nUXKtMHfzrKfeCDBaV0Pd_WzPioCT_IICx31UXC6hY3vhBmta4RwQXokHiltIYyoO7T1uzsqg/s1600/kyliemyhero-3.jpg"></a><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">Kylie</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">Happy 15th Birthday</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">Kylie,Did you know you are my hero?</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">Do you even know how amazing you are?</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">You are Smart, Funny, Caring,</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">and most of all Relentless.</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">Do you know what that word means?</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">It means you won't give up, shut up,</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">or give in, until you are heard. </span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">I love that about you!</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">Sometimes it is not so easy for us, (your family).</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">Sometimes we just don't understand, </span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">but in the end that spirit of determination</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">brings a smile to our face, and joy to our heart.</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">My wish for you is that you always know your are loved. </span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">My prayer for you is that your life</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">will somehow become easier each year.</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">My hope for you is that you wake up happy every day,</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">and go to sleep with a big smile on your face.</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">I love you sweet Kylie, I always have and I always will.</span></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;">You are my hero!!!!</span></strong></div></div>Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-73525721995452963282010-06-23T19:28:00.002-05:002010-06-23T19:58:06.423-05:00Just because they say it, doesn't make it true!Who are they anyway?<br />This is day 447, and you know what, I should have been living this journey as a healthy person already.........<br /> One year ago today I wrote <em>"I believe it is because I have found the secret. It is in the living, part, the day to day learning to do what is best for my health." </em><br /> I did just that for months and then I began listening to them, they were always there to remind me that it is a lot easier to just go with the flow, to do what is easy, to rely on the things I have always done. It's Thanksgiving go ahead add a lot of butter to that dish. It's Christmas, you have to bake cookies and bread. They just continue to try to influence me, and I let them sometimes, even though I know the secret.<br />Who are they anyway.... They are the thoughts and habits and traditions that live in my mind. I am not blaming anyone else, I rarely get tempted by others, even when people try really hard to get me to eat something, but I am my worst enemy. I trick myself into forgetting the secret, I tell myself I am just tired, or it will be ok just this once. So for today I am looking back and acknowledging the secret, <strong>It is in the living part, the day to day learning to do what is best for my health. </strong>I am a slow learner, but I am learning.Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-7807399056948839522010-06-21T13:14:00.002-05:002010-06-21T13:47:37.709-05:00Overcoming laziness!Who wants to admit they are lazy? Not me, but the truth is I would rather sit and watch TV than get up and exercise any day. Most of the time I turn on a TV show just to distract myself from this thing that I dislike so much (exercise). The strange thing is when I am finished I have such an amazing feeling of accomplishment. You would think the memory of that feeling would inspire me to want run towards this, but not me. The good news is just a few minutes into my exercise, I am fine with it. I sometimes want to do more than I had planned, but getting started well that is the hard part.<br /><br />I had a friend tell me she sure wishes she could get motivated to exercise, and I thought, me to. I never am, I just do it. Maybe someday I will jump up and be excited but I am not holding my breath.<br /><br />This heat just takes it out of me. I carry water, and walk indoors when it is to bad, but there is absolutely nothing thrilling about walking around a building going up and down the stairs, nothing.....<br />except the prospect of walking out side when when it is 100°.<br /><br />So will I be motivated to walk to the building next door and circle the hallways and go up and down the same stairs for the rest of the summer....No I don't think I will.... but I will just do it!<br /><br />I am never excited when I brush my teeth, or wash my hair and dry it. I rarely jump up and down for joy when I get to cook dinner, and clean up afterwards, I just do it because I have to.<br /><br />I need to convince my brain that I have to do this, until I am convinced I will just have to do it, until it is harder not to do it than it is to do it.Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-88592645484533017582010-06-18T10:29:00.002-05:002010-06-18T10:36:55.853-05:00So there I stood with the help of my dad<div align="center"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcWpyQuIIYiJjZ_ckVv3bf-fvYHog646HNrxkbL8Pn2CZ4zn5kiDKdwOhQkLCPw8Cdjr15OZK6u8hoO1l4GOoZSvDqA6scAjI6OgL2NrngAMNqU4eRl7kJvBnI5jO9EJJwy8GqAZ6Mtls/s1600/dad.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 207px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5484137136517120738" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcWpyQuIIYiJjZ_ckVv3bf-fvYHog646HNrxkbL8Pn2CZ4zn5kiDKdwOhQkLCPw8Cdjr15OZK6u8hoO1l4GOoZSvDqA6scAjI6OgL2NrngAMNqU4eRl7kJvBnI5jO9EJJwy8GqAZ6Mtls/s320/dad.jpg" /></a>So there I stood with the help of my dad</div><div align="center">I don't remember that day,</div><div align="center"> I don't think I was even one yet,at least I hope so, since I was still bald :)<br /></div><div align="center">I never really gave much thought to him holding me up</div><div align="center">he provided for us</div><div align="center">he made us laugh</div><div align="center">he spanked us</div><div align="center"> and in his own way he loved us!</div><div align="center">Thinking about my dad today</div><div align="center"> makes me want a hug</div><div align="center">Wish he was still here</div><div align="center">I would give him one!</div>Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-9058991059468811952010-06-17T10:49:00.003-05:002010-06-17T10:59:41.413-05:00Keeping on!<br />Since this blog is for me, and since I have not kept my part of the bargain that I struck with myself to blog, or journal as often as I could, I feel more than annoyed with myself for not keeping on. This is one of the things that I struggle with the most.<br /><br />Keeping on!<br /><br />I am not going to analyze this to death, but I wish I knew why or better yet how to prevent this lack of discipline in myself. I have never been all that good at laying it out there, being honest with myself, let alone anyone that cares to read here.<br />I do know this:<br /><strong>I will not quit!</strong><br />I may get sad<br />I may get mad<br />I might cry or shake my fist at the sky<br /><strong>But I will not quit.<br /></strong>So listen up girl, if for some reason I don't show up here for a day or two, or maybe even a month, I will still be here keeping on, the best I can.<br /><strong>I will not quit!!</strong> (Yeah, I am talking to me)<br /><br />Three days in a row, I ate right, I exercised and I feel good about that.<br /><br /><br /><br />“People often say that motivation doesn’t last. Well, neither does bathing – that’s why we recommend it daily. Zig ZiglarBettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-86518729784434704082010-06-16T10:12:00.002-05:002010-06-16T10:18:01.280-05:00My Bucket List!My Bucket list<br />First of all I need to take a look in my bucket<br />toss out the things that are not useful<br />sort through the things that are<br />What will I find?<br /><strong>Memories</strong>... both good and bad<br />some that makes me smile<br />some while bad, are still worthwhile.<br /><strong>Words</strong>... I've said and then regretted.<br /><strong>Words</strong>... I try to not forget!<br /><strong>Habits</strong>... Easy to come but hard to go<br /><strong>Frailties</strong>... yes I have a few<br />some are new...but most have<br />always been here.<br /><strong>Strengths</strong>... This is what I love about myself<br />and this is what I hate about myself.<br />I am strong...when I am knocked down<br />I am strong... when I need to be<br />I am strong ... when I keep my focus<br />But....<br />I am weak... when I am hurt<br />I am weak...when I lose my focus<br />I am weak... when I feel alone<br /><strong>Loyalty</strong>... Always and Forever<br />Things that got stuck on me<br /><strong>Impatience</strong>...don't like this<br /><strong>Intimidating</strong>...don't like this<br /><strong>Bossy</strong>...don't like this<br /><strong>High achiever</strong>... I like this<br /><strong>Reliable</strong>...I like this<br /><strong>Creative</strong>...I like this<br /><strong>Forgiving</strong>...I like this<br /><strong><span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Sensitive</span></strong>... I like and dislike this one<br />So I have a lot to sort through in my bucket,<br />then I am going to fill it full of all the things that<br />complete me, that make me happy, that makes<br />me a better person. Whatever it takes!<br /><br />The first thing I will add to my bucket today is<br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong>Living healthy</strong></span>...look for ways to do thisBettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-56732399417291461242010-06-15T13:11:00.002-05:002010-06-15T13:52:03.781-05:00Whah, whah, whah!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRmwV5notiUGnodjchV1BMe9OvF1lB_KVB8A6kjz2X0umBVVsYD_NzpXaCOhFiVUrfTbu49Me6lhenS69v1lf0Ulj7ngXGrZMOUKFpfSYpfcAVi5BJvH3yHs3hZmFfKkbSoK6rdvqbJQ4/s1600/1191512_9296_thumb.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 95px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 95px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5483064744384504178" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRmwV5notiUGnodjchV1BMe9OvF1lB_KVB8A6kjz2X0umBVVsYD_NzpXaCOhFiVUrfTbu49Me6lhenS69v1lf0Ulj7ngXGrZMOUKFpfSYpfcAVi5BJvH3yHs3hZmFfKkbSoK6rdvqbJQ4/s200/1191512_9296_thumb.jpg" /></a><br /><div>I have been sick....</div><div>I have been stressed out....</div><div>The weather has been awful....</div><div><strong>And the worst possible thing is I got old! </strong></div><div><strong></strong> </div><div>So cry me a river you say. I have spent much of this day looking for inspiration and not really finding any. Most of the time I don't really need a pep talk but sometimes I need for someone besides myself to give me a kick in the backside and tell me to quit whining. <strong>Just do it!</strong> </div><div> </div><div>I have to admit this getting old thing has been much harder than I thought it would be. I have endured endless teasing at work, and normally I can look ahead with anticipation, but now the finish line is easier to see, and I am still so far from my goal. I told you this was a whah-whah-whah post. I think if I actually write this all down I will see how ridiculous it is and then I can <strong>Just do it!</strong></div><div><strong></strong> </div><div>For most of my life I have managed to be content at whatever place I was in, and to be honest when things looked the worst for me, that is when I was at my best. It's not that easy now. I really want a do-over but I realize that's not possible. I wish I had made better choices, I wish this blog was not necessary but it is what it is. So even though I am now old, I must always remember I am losing it, and still learning to live a healthy life. </div><div><strong></strong> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div>Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7862143679958921436.post-73961379878359295982010-05-24T10:34:00.003-05:002010-05-24T11:16:47.950-05:00I forgive me!<strong>It</strong> seems like forever since I really felt in control, but in reality it hasn't been that long since I was up at 5:30, (in the wee hours of the morning) doing my exercises, eating healthy and feeling great. Somewhere along the way I got sidetracked, not sure if it was splurging on extra points, grabbing my trigger foods and pretending that this would be the last candy bar I would eat. I'm not sure when I decided that just because my knee was hurting it would be ok to not exercise for awhile. This has been my life for as long as I can remember. How do you restart when you are so mad at yourself for doing the one thing you tell yourself you are not doing again. The only way I can think of is to just forgive yourself and start again. Did you notice I didn't say start over, well that's the good news, I don't have to start over, I have learned to much to have to do that. I am not one that likes to dwell on the past, being introspective is a good thing, but for me it is sometimes just to depressing. I would rather look ahead, plan to do better, and be glad that I can push re-start once again, forgive myself for being weak, get back on track and change the things I can. Being honest, that's the hard part, it's really not that hard to do the right thing, there is freedom in doing the right thing, living your best, taking care of yourself. Don't be fooled by the lies (you hear in your head) They are lies!!! You probably can't eat just one! You probably won't do your exercises when the weather clears up! The truth is I can do this, <strong>the truth is I will!</strong>Bettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10942677062495177477noreply@blogger.com0