Day Fifty-Five

I just watched Oprah and she had different people on from the Biggest Loser. I have not had a very good day today, being sick is no fun, I thought this my pull me out of the doldrums . My husband and I listened to these people talk about how the weight loss had changed their life. Then the Losers that had gained back some of their weight came on and each one said that losing the weight was the easy part. Keeping it off was the hard part. I have always known this to be true, but it really hit me in my gut when I saw these people that I invited into my home each week. That is me. I have lost weight plenty of times, a couple of times I really looked good, but I never felt like I was free from this demon that kicks my butt all the time. I think my problem has always been about losing weight, not living healthy. I know I have to cut my portions down, get out and move, give my body the nutrients it needs and then live my life, and fit it all together. This is my goal.

Day Fifty-Four

Back to normal, sort of. I came home with a cold and I am not really up to doing my my shred today, so I decided to try the push up thing again. I thought maybe I was just doing something wrong, but no, its still very hard for me. Clearly this is one I am really in need of, as soon as I quit coughing my lungs up I am going to do it again.

My brain says, starve a fever, feed a cold, feed a headache, feed a sore throat, feed a cough. My heart says come on you love yourself more than that. Hang on, and so NyQuil here I come. cough cough!

Dat 49,50,51, 52 and 53

Wipe Out is not just a Television show, it is what can happen in just 5 short days. It didn't happen to me though. I didn't eat like I normally do, I didn't pass on the dessert, but only one time at one meal and yes I tried almost all of the yummy desserts. Vacations happen and I am going to encounter times like this, so my plan is to just jump back in tomorrow and eat healthy. I have a short week this week so I will try to catch up sometime this week, plan my menu and get out and Walk.


In a moment of complete madness I bought this DVD. I am afraid it will be the death of me. I don't think I could have done this when I was young and in shape, but I am going to give it all I have. It may take me a year to get to 5 push ups (who knew those were so hard, they look so easy) but I will not give up. I had a wonderful time with my family, we played badminton and I landed on my butt, we laughed, had good food and made lots of great memories.

Day Forty-Eight

Well day forty eight was as hectic for me as day forty six was. I got really caught up in American Idol this year and spent one night texting until my thumbs were bleeding(not really). But my guy won, and I handled my emotions just fine. I was snack hungry tonight last night so I made myself a big bowl of Oatmeal with dark chocolate and sliced bananas. That did the trick and I wasn't hungry the rest of the night. I normally eat when I get nervous, but I did just fine. I am going to try to remember in the future when I just feel like I need to snack, just grab something healthy and filling and they must, cover all the bases. Crunchy, Almonds, Sweet, Maple syrup and bananas, Flavorful, brown sugar and cinnamon, Smooth, creamy oatmeal.

Day Forty-Seven A Day Late!

I did not blog yesterday and this is the reason why!

I admit it I was a little, ok a lot Over the Top for Kris

Maybe it is because he is our homeboy, maybe it is because

he is just so darn cute. I would really like to think it was because

he was just very, very talented. As nervous as I was while texting

I managed to keep myself out of the kitchen. I hope he wins, but it

really doesn't matter because to me he already has. Congratulations Kris!

Day Forty-Six

How sweet is this!

For my day after Birthday at work my Supervisor brought this beautiful and tasty fruit tray. So much better than a cake. This day, this one day I don't have to watch other people eat and splurge and wish I was one of the lucky ones that can eat anything. So how can I ask for more on my forty sixth day of eating healthy. The great thing is there is no rain,

it is just beautiful so I got to walk really fast and for fifty minutes .

I feel very hopeful today.

Fifty nine and one day is not all that bad.

I'll take it!

Day Forty-Five

Happy Birthday to me!

One Weight Watchers Chocolate Muffin
2 T. Marshmallow Cream
2T. Almond Milk
2 T. FF Cool Whip
decorations for cookies or cakes.
The icing was very, very good! Yummy....
This has been a very uneventful day, nice lunch, cooked on the grill, nice dessert. So far no cheat.... So far no stress.... So far no big deal just another day, I have decided this year will be my year. I just have to take one day at a time.