Sometimes I want to dance....

I don't want to deal with the problems that always seem to find me...I want to dance
I don't want to get an invitation to everyone's problems......I want to dance
I don't want to think about the mistakes that I have made....... I want to dance
I don't want to think about an uncertain future...... I want to dance

I don't' want to.....but sometimes I have too. I hate it when my pretend life get interrupted by any of the above. My favorite saying is:

"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass......It's about learning to dance in the rain."

I want to dance, even when my heart is broken, or even if I am frustrated by seeing someones life that is in ruin. I want to deal with my life, my choices with honesty, not pretending that everything is ok, and later realize that I have broken my pretender. I always try to fix things in my life so that I can function at my best. When everything is in its place, I can pretend that all is well. When I can't fix it, I eat, I cry, I have a hard time motivating myself. I don't want to wait, so tomorrow I will dance. I will!

Like eating in a Mexican Restaurant

I felt like I was eating in a Mexican restaurant today, and I made it myself. Yum, so good this recipe gets a 4 star rating. It was cheesy, and spicy and very filling.

Baked Tostado
1 tostado shell
2 T. Salsa
1oz. lean cooked ground beef
¼ cup rice
¼ cup black beans
¼ cup green enchilada sauce
2 oz. 2% cheese
Layer the items on the Tostado shell using the green enchilada sauce then cheese last. Bake covered for 20 minutes, then uncover for last 5 minutes.
Very good.

I served it with black beans and rice with just 1 Tablespoon grated cheese.

Un-Packed

The little train that could!

Happy Face! I am all un-packed. Yep I have everything put away including those ugly pounds I packed on during my vacation.

Whoo Hoo!

No big post today it is Saturday so I am going to play!!!!

Black Bean Soup and Changes are coming!

Easiest Black Bean Soup Ever

2 cans Back Beans

1 cup salsa (I used Peach Salsa)

1 can Chicken Broth

Blend one can of drained and rinsed Black beans with salsa and Chicken Broth. Rinse the other can of Black Beans and add the the blended beans mixture. Heat, add a dollop of Sour Cream and enjoy. Very low in points. One cups was only 2.5 points.

Recess is over.

I am not trying to kid anyone, I have tried to eat healthy and exercise more. I have succeeded much of the time, but I have not made this my top priority. It really has been relatively easy for me, so now I am ready to kick it up a notch. Recess is over, I am ready to get serious, lose some pounds and step out of my comfort zone. Not knowing exactly what direction this will lead me into makes me very uncomfortable, but it's gonna be worth it. I want to surprise myself, I want to do things I thought I couldn't do. I want to do things, I don't like to do, and I want to learn to like those things. I have a list, not sure I want to post my list yet, I am sure my list will change, some things I will keep, some I will ditch, but one thing is for sure and for certain..... Things are about to change.

Change #1 Exercise before work. That means getting up earlier. I can do this!

Stay tuned more changes to come....

No! I am not holding my husband captive.

But I am sure he will say I am. Today is "day one" of his healthy eating journey. I will not blog about his journey, but I am sure his will affect me. We have tried this before, and not with good results. I have high hopes this time though, I am no longer trying to entice my husband on yet another diet, but I am going to give him the tools to eat healthier. It all starts with Weight Watchers of course, but more than that, I want him to see the benefits of this lifestyle. He is ready to do this, and I am ready to help ( I think). I really want this to be a good experience, since it will be a "for the rest of our lives thing" and I am preparing myself for not being his jailer. I am sure he will be happy about that. For me the hard part will be not making him my project, and not allowing his success or lack of success to affect my emotions. So on day one I called him to see how he was doing. It appears he is just fine, he ate his lunch I had prepared for him, for breakfast, and he said he would hunt something up when he got home, (insert eye roll here) then laugh. I am afraid this will be one long journey....

Oh Wow!

When I first started blogging I had no idea how this simple act would change my life. My first blog was 128 days ago, I was doing this for me then and I still am, but something happened along the way. I started listening to me, maybe it is just writing it down and reading my own words that makes validating my own thoughts easier for me. There is no one that will ever be a bigger cheerleader for me than myself. I know this, I always have, yet I am the one that listens to the other thoughts (the ones I have allowed to steal my resolve.) I am the one that use to beat myself up for messing up, for eating something really bad for me. I said use to because somewhere during this journey I have stopped doing that. I still get mad at myself and I let myself know it when I overeat to the point of feeling bad, or if I mindlessly eat to fill a void, but I think that eating healthy has become a part of me. When I eat things that are really unhealthy or just to much, like I did on vacation last week, I can't wait to get back to my new habit of feeling good. It's not so much about the weight gain, yes I gained 2.5 pounds in one week, but I just felt bad the entire time. The thing that feels good to me is, I listen to the good thoughts more now. It helps writing them down and reading your own words. I love my blog and I can't wait to see what changes are waiting for me in the future.

I have a bad cold and I don't feel good!
And in three days I am going on a road trip to this place.

So do you think it would be okay to take a break from blogging and counting every point, and calorie that goes into my mouth. I am just tired and I hope I don't do to much damage, but I am going to take a 10 day break. Yikes.... that's a long time, I probably won't eat everything in sight but it is hard enough going on vacation, but when you have no strength to keep at it, I guess the next best thing is to be careful and have fun.....