I am loving losing myself a little at a time.

Oh Yum! Boca Burgers and Peach Salsa. Soooo Good!

Only 4 points Total.

I am so happy with the way things are going with this new healthy living. When I first began, it seemed to go so slow. I was fussy, and irritable because the pounds wern't coming off fast enough. Now I couldn't feel better about things. Each day I feel stronger, and this struggle is teaching me so much. There was a time when I went on vacation, ate whatever I wanted, then found it impossible to get back on track. It was so much easier this time around. I believe it is because I have found the secret. It is in the living, part, the day to day learning to do what is best for my health. Today a co-worker brought brownies, I passed by those brownies at least 10 times, but I never once felt tempted. I brought a Chocolate Chip Banana muffin for Breakfast and they are so good, only 4 points and lots of fiber. Good choices, lead to good days. Today was a good day! [Day 80]

Day Seventy-Nine

When a person reaches my age you would think that some wisdom would automatically be at hand when you need to call on it. Not so. I am finding all the things I have been learning on this journey may not have been correct or maybe these things that make me what I am have been part of my problem all along. Since I don't have the time or inclination to fix everything, and try to relearn all of these fallacies I will try to examine some of my beliefs about my weight loss.

1. Someday I can eat what I want to. --Fact-- I can now, within reason.


2. If I cheat, no one will know. --Fact-- I will know every time I weigh or look in the mirror.


3. Some day this struggle will be over. --Fact--The struggle is my teacher, and I will always be a student.


4. Ignoring it doesn't make it go away.--Fact--This is so true, face it, track it, never ignore it.


5. There is no way to eat healthy on a trip.--Fact-- Planning, makes it possible, not easy, but possible.


6. When I am feeling sorry for myself, indulge.--Fact--indulge in the fresh air, a long walk, some good music, A good book, a little quite time, not food....


7. When I am angry I will feel better if I indulge.--Fact--when I indulge I will be angrier.


8. When I am happy it is OK to celebrate with food. --Fact-- Yes it is OK, just keep track and plan for it.


9. When I reach my goal this diet will be over.--Fact-- This is not a diet, when I reach goal my lifestyle will still be a struggle, but maybe just maybe I will learn to live this healthy lifestyle.


10. Someday I will not have to exercise. --Fact-- Not true, I will always have to exercise, I will always have to maintain this lifestyle, eating healthy, and moving..... everyday!

Today will be my last day to count each day, from now on I will try to remember that on April 10th, I made a decision to live a healthy lifestyle and each day thereafter will be a victory!

There is no excuse!!! Day Seventy-Seven and Seventy-Eight

This is how my day started! 3 points. Great so far.

At some point we realized that we had been so busy we

Forgot to eat. My sister bought a big bag of Almonds with Sea Salt

and I had a couple of handfuls.

We got everything ready for the party and when it finally started I

was starving, we did this party thing all backwards, and had the cake

and ice cream before our meal. So I could not resist. I was starving.

When everyone left, we put the burgers and hot dogs on the grill and

(Katie bar the door) I ate like I had missed 10 meals. I then snacked

the rest of the night.

Sunday wasn't much better, but I got home and made sandwiches with

high fiber bread and baked chips. Tomorrow will be better. It will.

Losing weight and learning to live a healthy life is not user friendly at times. Sometimes I wish I was allergic to all things fattening, maybe then when I was faced with them I would say no thank you with no regrets. It's just hard to go to a party and not eat the cake, oh I know, you can have the cake if you plan for it, but sometimes you have already made a choice that doesn't leave you any more points. So I ate some cake, some ice cream and about 2 hours later I ate a hot dog and Cheetos. I have no idea how many points I consumed but it was way to many. For Seventy Six days I have made good choices, 77 and 78 not so great, but what fun times I had with my family, and I will learn to do better next time.

Day Seventy-Five and Seventy-Six

Happy 86th Birthday Mom!!!

Well summer is here, and I am afraid the day are getting a little to hectic for me, but I am going to try my best to color in the lines this summer even when it gets a little crazy. I will be gon for the weekend and we will be celebrating my Mom's 86'th Birthday. There will probably be lots of fast food and a lot of choices to make. I hope I make the best choice even if my options are less than favorable. Last night I was so tempted to order in pizza, for the big crowd I had over, but instead I grilled chicken and made veggies on the grill. We went go-carting and out for icecream. I am so proud of myself, I only had about 10 licks then I passed it off to dear hubby. Now if I can make it through the weekend. This is my life, not a six month program or goal so I need to see it that way. Just another day, just another weekend.

Yum!!! Day Seventy-Three and Seventy-Four

I found this recipe today and I had to try it. It is so yummy, I am not sure about the points but I don't think it's more than 2 points.

Recipe:1 box - lemon cake

mix3/4 cup water

1/3 cup applesauce

2 egg whites

1 box sugar free jello

2 - 8oz. low fat or fat free lemon yogurt

1 - 8oz. fat free cool whip

Instructions:Combine cake mix, water, applesauce and egg whites and jello in bowl, mix until smooth. Stir in 1 container of yogurt.Bake in a sprayed 9 x 13 pan for 30 minutes at 350 degrees or until done.cut in 20 slices, or make 20 cupcakes. Mix cool whip and lemon yougurt for frosting. Yum!

I am doing better, I had two of these babies tonight. I am going to try chocolate next week.

Oiy-Vey.....Day Seventy-Two

This was monday, and it stayed that way all day. I have PMS and I know it, it will pass, I hope. I did ok today, but my emotions are really getting the best of me so the best thing for me to do is just say, tomorrow will be better. I hope.

When it rains.....Eat soup! Day Seventy and Seventy-One

I don't love rain, that is no secret. I do love soup though, and how fun to have soup on a rainy day. Gives me a full and warm feeling. Love all the veggies and it is so low in points I can eat it with every meal. I can also throw an exercise DVD in the DVD player and in the privacy of my own home I can stay fit. Who knows this may be a new way of life for me, it seems like it will never stop raining.

So for today I am going to say I love the rain, but please Lord let it go away tomorrow.