It's been a long time coming!

I am back. I have no idea what all happened in my life the past 6 months, I just know I was sicker than I have ever been. I have been to more doctors in the past 6 months than I have been to in my entire life. Most of the time they spent eliminating things that wasn't wrong with me :( of course that does nothing for the problem at hand, except in my case it made it worse. Finally after an MRI, 3 x-rays numerous blood tests, it was diagnosed as Pneumonia. The antibiotics were terrible and left very bad side affects but I finally began to stop coughing so much.
 My eating habits have been so bad during this time, but in spite of this I lost 15 pounds, but I now have my  appetite back along with the bad habits. So it is time to get serious.

I am going to try to start exercising and eating right today.

She Lives!

This has been a rough 5 months but I think I may be on my way back. I can breathe, I am not coughing constantly, and my headaches are manageable.

Still hanging in there on the Weight loss and healthy eating part of my life. I lost all the weight the steroids put on me and I am trying to get serious about the points plus program.

Day one: I feel better, I will attempt to eat better, and when I get a little more strength I will exercise.
Yay....Bring on day two!

Yes, I am still sick.

I almost didn't post because it is just to depressing. Oh well, the thing is I can usually find a way to make things better, and I am trying but it seems the doctors can't find out what is wrong with me. I am not giving up, but I am through being a research tool as well. Just trying to enjoy the good days now, and hoping for many more. :) Also hoping for normal again.

sick :(

Winning Battles

Lately I have won more battles than I have lost,
but I have lost to many to count. Small victories
really add up, and while I do believe that I can eat
anything I want (within reason), I really want to make
the healthy choice. Sometimes it is a battle (in my own mind)
and sometimes it is just easy. That is what I want more than
anything along this journey. I just want to " want to do this."


Today I was in the snack shack at work, and I really thought about
getting this candy bar. It is only one point per square. It has 5 squares
and it is a dark chocolaty goodness. I picked it up and carried it around
to make sure this is what I wanted,

and then I saw this!

And I wanted it... Yay!!!!

So today this is how it went:

Dark Chocolate Candy.... $1.07

Banana... $ .55

Winning the battle... Priceless

eta: I do realize that chocolate is not unhealthy

Making Choices

Just one minute at a time lately, or so it seems. I can be absolutely on track and doing fine and the next minute I am off center. Not off track, not going forward or backward, but off just a little. It is enough though, to make you crazy.

I have this sever sinus infection and I got a shot of steroids, (give me more) not really! On one hand I feel tons better, I have more energy than I have had in weeks, and I know it is short term, but.... I can be breezing along feeling perfectly full and the next thing I know I am hunting for food....(not good for you food). Fortunately the antibiotics make me a little nauseous or I would be in real trouble.

I wish there was a way to feel this way without the steroids and there dangerous side affects....Oh wait there is, exercise! When I am well and I can beat my body into submission I feel this same way after I exercise, so why the heck do I avoid it so much? I am going to have to give this some major think time, maybe I just had a light bulb moment. I hope I can keep the light on long enough to make that thought a part of me.

Into every life a little rain must fall...enough with the rain!

It is not raining here, not real rain anyway, but it is pouring lately and frankly I can hardly keep my head above the water. I have managed to make good choices most of the time but I have also made some really bad ones.

It seems like every time I push reset, bad things happen. Just as I was starting to gain control my mom fell and broke her hip. I had to travel to her hometown and stay in the hospital with her for 3 days and nights. I only left for some, dare I say "Jack in the Box!" I haven't had a Jack in the box taco since I left California, over 3o years ago. Wow, my memory served me well it was just the same taste, I loved every bite, but I only had one. One fried taco, who knows the calories but it was such a memory pleaser. Then back at the hospital I had pastries from Starbucks to mornings in a row. Back home... and I came down with a severe sinus infection ugh! So I am struggling to get back to my normal.

Blues, Bikes and Barb-Q.....Oh my, I forgot I have a family of bikers staying with me this weekend, What a life.