Last year I had determined to do 58 things I had never done before, well that didn't go well. One of the things I had decided to do was to take my excess weight off and keep it off. I have lost weight many times, but I have never kept it off. That would rank up there with one of the most important things I could do for myself that I have never done before. I did fly to New York by myself, I did manage to exercise for 10 months, then I stopped. I just want to make it all the way, despite the struggle, despite the set backs, I want to make it. I want to do this for me, the problem is when I am vulnerable I want to eat that cookie for me, or I want the cake everyone else is eating for me. It is difficult to be disciplined when that has not been important to you your whole life. Little things throw me for a loop, uninvited guests, nothing thawed out for dinner, illness, arguments, it doesn't take much to make me lose sight of my goal. So this blog is an attempt for me be accountable to me. For me to be honest, and if the world knows so be it. I want to be good to my body, which means not overdoing things. I want to eat my fruits, veggies and whole grains, and I want to exercise. I don't want to let it rule my life! I want to splurge once in a while, enjoy my splurge and then I want to be able to stop, get back on track. I guess my point is that I really need to strive to be good to my body, which means not overdoing things. I want to be proud of my body and all that it does for me and every now and then let myself splurge and enjoy that burger!
I want to do this really bad.