Time to get serious, REALLY!

I have been doing this for 3 months now, and I have only lost 18 pounds, thats not counting the 2 pounds I gained this week either. I know I will lose it this week, but I am frusterated because I really haven't gave it 100%.

Today I walked and jogged 4 miles and when I finished I sang "I feel good, like I knew that I would". It did feel good, and I am so sore at the moment I can hardly move, but I realized, that was 100%. That is what I must do every day. I may not exercise that much every day, but I will try harder to eat right, move more and take one more step toward my goal.

Whoa! Did I eat that?

I have had a stressful week, and I don't do stress very well. I really thought I had a better handle on my eating habits but not so. I planned for eating healthy, I took food with me to my family's home. What I didn't count on was the fact that I would slide right back into the grazing habit that pretty much has always been my Achilles' heel. I am glad I lost 3 pounds last week, because I am not feeling good about this week at all. I tried to get back on track today but I was starving all day, and since I used all my extra points for the next 3 weeks in the last 3 days, I had a hard time today. I drank a green monster for my snack tonight even though I was out of points, I consoled myself with the thought that it was healthy and only 3 points.

On the positive side I did exercise today for 35 minutes. I am hoping that tomorrow I will find my resolve. This weekend I will plan, plan, plan and I will get back my 3 pound weight loss, that I have not officially gained back since my weigh-in is on Saturday. Just being honest. (insert big smile here)

What a blast this is!

Living healthy goes against every thing I have ever experienced. The world I live in, the people I surround myself with, their lifestyle is just like mine has always been, so I want to join in and consume the candy, the cake and the fried foods. I want to but, I don't want to so I am torn should I give in once in a while, or should I constantly be in a battle with myself over this. I have decided that for me, I will join in once in while. I won't turn my nose up and insult the people that love the foods I have always loved as well, but I will put my butt back in the healthy car as soon as I leave the party. It's not about every single meal, its about the 22 other meals that week. I had a great fourth of July, I ate well, and I also ate a few things I shouldn't but I had a blast, and oh yeah I Lost 3 Pounds last week! Yea!!!