Day Twenty-Three

Start the music, play the song

The one thing I know for sure is that up until now my life has been pretty predictable. I start out doing great, with almost any project I start and then the first sign of adversity, the first time I hit a road bump, I get sidetracked. The one thing that is a constant in my life is my love for my family. I have never decided to not take care of my family, not once. I don't remember ever thinking that, well since my husband was in a bad mood, or my son did the unthinkable, that I would just stop loving them or taking care of them. I can't imagine that any thing would sidetrack me from them, because I love them. Why then do I keep getting sidetracked, when it comes to taking care of me. So if life is the music and love is the song, I need to find out what my song is, and start loving it. This is what I must do. No more being discouraged, no more getting sidetracked. This is not a new diet, or a new project. It is my life. I need to find a way to hear that song (my life) when I hit a road bump, or when I want to give up. I want to do this.... I will do this. Stay tuned, I will let you know when I find my song...

Day Twenty-Two

I am officially discouraged. I wish there was some way I could possibly understand this crazy body of mine. This is my third week, the first week I lost 6.5 pounds, the second week nothing, OK this happens, next week I Will have a really good weight loss, after all I did everything right, I exercised every day, I ate all my points, all that equals success right, Wrong!!!!! I only lost one pound this week, I know one pound is something. I guess I should be jumping up and down. I just want to scream, that's not fair. I did everything right, who knows what's going on, my body seems to be having a love affair with this fat, and it doesn't want to let it go.
But in the end--

" Expecting life to treat you well because you are a good person is like expecting an angry bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian" Shari R. Barr

This is what I know:
I am a good person
I am doing everything right
I am going to continue fighting this battle
I am not going to stay discouraged, I just won't
I am not a VEGETARIAN!
Next week starts TODAY

Day Twenty-One

I wanted to walk today, tomorrow is my weigh-in day and I wanted so badly to walk, but I woke up with a bad ingrown toenail. I went to the Dr. and I found out that I will have to have surgery on both feet, three toes on each foot. The Dr. said it won't take long before I can walk again, so I guess the next thing for me to do is find a different way to burns some calories.
To make matters worse, I had a disappointment at work, I didn't exercise, and I ate more points than I have all week in any single day. I know on Weight Watchers you are supposed to get 35 extra points a week but it does make me nervous to use them. I know it was only 2 points, but not walking has really bummed me out. Oh well this is a lifetime deal, I am going to cross my fingers and hope for the best tomorrow. See you at the scales (not really).

Day Twenty

They say it takes 21 days to form a habit. Tomorrow will be my 21st day. It's not the truth!!! I quit smoking 37 years ago, and it took me years to stop wanting a cigarette. I don't expect my eating habits to change that quick either. I do really great one day and the next I just want to fall back into my grazing patterns of the past.
I have never been a big eater, I always eat less than most of my friends, but most of my friends don't want to eat an hour after lunch or dinner. I would really like to break that habit, I think it is the one thing that always trips me up. I am not sure how I will do it, I have managed to eat less at my meals even still, leaving room for some snacking points. I have also never been good at snacking on anything healthy, so yesterday I took carrots to work, they were great, so I took them today...I didn't touch them.
I think I have alot of work to do on me. Thanks for cheering me on....

Day Nineteen!

The Bettering of Betty

{Phase one of her betterment is in the early stages}

When I think about the amount of weight I need to lose, 8lbs seems like such a small amount. I am impatient, I want it to be twenty or thirty pounds already. I would love to lose as fast at they do on the Biggest Loser. That is not gonna happen, and with my track record, I may as well brace myself for a long period before I enter into the final phase. In the meantime I am looking for the Bettering of Betty. I don't expect just losing weight to make me a better person, and I have been there enough times to know that it is me that must change. I have to learn to think better, make better choices, and I need to believe that I can do this. The truth is when you get older you see how much time you have wasted, the choices you made when you were younger are beginning to let your body know how much it appreciates it. My body is not very happy with me, so I am starting phase one with a not so happy body, but a strong determination to finish this race well. On my list of 58 things I have never done before, one of the most important things for me to accomplish is to get my weight off and keep it off. I am fully committed to this, so hopefully when I am in the latter stages of phase one, you will see a better Betty.

Day Eighteen!

I tweeted my food journal today, my followers must think I am food obsessed, all I do is post what I eat. It was nice to come home to day and in 30 seconds my food journal was all done.
Saturday night, my friends and I were on facebook chatting, can you believe I am over 50.
We were talking about how 25 years ago we would never have dreamed we would be chatting
on the Internet. I see myself changing in so many ways yet I have allowed myself to stay the
same in the management of my life. Really, that was my aha moment, I realized I had allowed
so much change in my life. If I can get on a plane by myself, and fly to New York City to see a
Broadway show, if I can start three completely different jobs after turning 50, if I can learn to
navigate the web, right click and save, make my own Christmas Montages. If I can learn to Blog. then what is stopping me from changing habits that have caused me such grief. That is what I am doing, or maybe I should say attempting to do. I am not there yet, but I am getting there
one day at a time.
So if I can:

• Tweet
• Chat online
• Fly across the country
• Start new jobs
• Navigate the web
• Make montages
• Then I can surely mange to live a healthy life.

Day Seventeen

I am so glad this day is over. I can't eat another bite, and I still have 2 points left. I need to work on my weekends better. I think I am going to have 2 points worth of chocolate. Did I say I can't eat another bite, well, there is always room for chocolate. Yum!