Saturday, April 18, 2009

Day Sixteen

I was not going to weigh today, I kept looking at the scale, and scooting it over. I wiped it off. I drank two cups of coffee and told myself "now you can't get on the scale" but I have little will power and later in the day, after I had finished dinner I could stand it no longer. I got on the scale and I was down one pound since yesterday. I am hoping by my weigh-in day on Friday that I lose at least 2 pounds.

It is a rainy day here, I went shopping and bought some SmartFood Popcorn Clusters....Yum.

I realize its not smart to weigh everyday, and I hope to get out of this habit someday soon, but until I do my hope is that when I find a loss, I can rejoice, when I find a gain, I can see the words that are on this scale, and search for the help I need to get through to the other side.

Friday, April 17, 2009

Day Fifteen

Zip, Nada, Zilch

I was afraid this would happen. I didn't lose one ounce. My body just never wants to let go of the fat. I am not going to let this get me down though. I had a great week, I exercised 6 days out of seven, I ate most of my points. I did everything right, and no prize. To be honest, I wanted to kick that scale into oblivion, but ,"I had a feeling" (stealing this line from Sir Robin"). It's the way my body has always done. So my plan for this week is just to keep on, keeping on. The weight I packed on will eventually come off. I am totally frustrated with my new cell phone right now so my weight is taking back seat (how appropriate).
The weekend is coming up and I am not going to cry about this, I am going to let it fire me up, what right does my body have trying to hang onto this weight, let it go already!!!! (end of rant!)

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Day Fourteen!

If this were a battle.....Wait it is!
If I had been in a battle for my life today, I would have been decimated. Thank goodness I planned ahead, brought my lunch, nothing extra just in case I got hungry.... because I was so tired all day I could barely keep my head up, and when I am that I tired I have a habit of eating my way out of exhaustion. I had to force my way out the door to walk, to make matters worse it was cloudy and cold. I just wanted to cover up my head all day and go back to bed. I need sleep, and I need it bad.
So what did I learn in my battle weariness?
1. Habits can be broken
2. Sometimes you just have to push through
3. Try not to put yourself in this position.
What can I do to to avoid this again?
1. Realistically, I know it will happen again at some point (some times you just can't sleep).
2. Plan ahead, and don't set yourself up for temptation.
3. Make a new habit (drink water, go for a walk, clean your desk etc.)

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Day Thirteen

Wholly Guacamole
This is not a food blog, but in a way it is. It is all about how I manage food, enjoy food, and learn to eat food in a healthy and satisfying way. When my niece told me about Wholly Guacamole, I looked at my Wal-Mart and bought the large package. It contained 2 7oz packs. That night I had a Burrito, and let me tell you that Guac, sealed the deal. I was so full and satisfied, and it was only 1 point extra. I went back tonight and bought the 100 calorie snack packs, if you have not tried this you will love them if you like Guacamole. I have really tried to make my meals good and interesting. So far my meals this week have been my best meals in a long time.
I have one more day before my weigh in and I am a little nervous. I am usually a slow loser, I keep trying to believe last week wasn't a fluke and I could actually lose weight this week too, but there is this nagging memory of my past life. I am going to be happy either way, even if I don't lose a single pound, I got back in my black jeans today so there is hope.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Day Twelve

I'm losing it and I'm loving it!
Is this great or what, I was thinking today about how the last 12 days have just flown by and I have to be honest some days were stress filled and some were just ordinary days. The thing is they were all made easier by my committing to this lifestyle change. My planning my menu, and BLOGGING! Today I read a few blogs that spoke straight to my heart. I don't know that I will ever write anything that will inspire someone else, but I hope if anyone reading this can get one thing from my blog it would be that, there is hope, this wall of fat that I have built will come off, it has before, but I have never made a decision to keep it off, I have made that decision and it is my prayer that I will hang in there when it is tough and my resolve is at its lowest. I well read my words, and those of my fellow blogger's and I will, I will find my way to a healthy life.

Day 12 was a great day, Please Lord, let it rain at night.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Day Eleven

It's not always all about the food.
Yesterday was Easter, I bought a ham, cleaned my house, and prepared for a great lunch. I really never even thought about it being difficult to eat and stay within my points. We invited friends over, and most important my son came. It is so nice to have him back living close to us. We had potatoes, green beans, salad, and sweet potatoes
and of course Strawberry Shortcake. ( and I stayed within my points)
But most of all, it was a day not to worry about me, but about what Christ did for me. I really want to live my life with no regrets, I want to believe that the best hasn't happened yet, so for now I will live each day with maximum effort. I will rely on the good sense God has given me, the positive attitude that I have to often, let slide but if nurtured is one of my best qualities. I can get to my goal, and I will!

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Day Nine and Ten

I am not posting today.
May you and yours have a
Happy Easter!