Saturday, May 16, 2009

Day Forty-Four

I have excepted it, I don't think I will ever have a waist. I think it's genetic, at least that is what I have always told myself. I have never really not believed that, even when I was young and not fat. I just never had a waist, not the curvy type. Today as I was shopping for clothes and I realized I never buy anything that shows my waist. I always wear puffy tops, so my goal for this weigh loss is to find my waist. I do not believe anymore that I am genetically predisposed to looking fat. I will just have to work harder and someday it will happen.

Oh yeah, I cheated and weighed myself today and I have lost 2 more pounds, but I am not counting them until Friday. Yea! for me.....

Friday, May 15, 2009

Day Forty-Three

I got me some new sneakers, and I am ready to get serious. I will not quit, I will not give up. I need to kick it up a notch. Healthy eating is good but I have got to get off my bum and hit the road. If you see this person that is trying to sabotage me let me know there is a $5000 reward for them. I am hoping for a weigh loss next week. Zero is not good!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Day Forty-Two

Whoa!!!!!!!! I skipped right by Day forty-one. Busy, hectic day, exhausting and exhilarating day.
I stayed on target with my points and I got my walking in, but there was no time to blog. I try very hard not to Sabotage myself like I have in the past. I plan ahead, when I can't plan, I just try to think about the healthiest option available. It seems easier now after doing it for 40+ days
but at times it is just plain hard. I have to battle that voice in my head that says, this is going to slow, this is to expensive, this is to hard. I am not even sure why I have to battle these thoughts, but they do crop up daily. I hope that someday because I have persevered, these thoughts will be replaced with, slow but sure, what a small price to pay and how easy is this. Looking back on my life I would have to say that I have listened to these same thoughts for years, I know what hard is, and honestly this isn't hard. Exercising isn't even hard, but that's another one I have to battle. So I am going to gear up, remind myself that this journey doesn't have to be that hard, and remember these words from DR. Phil. " You want hard, I'll show you hard."

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Day Forty

It's been one of those days. I have alot to deal with, and I am doing the best I can. I stayed within my points, I walked at lunch, and I kept my focus. I don't understand why the world doesn't just stop long enough for us to deal with our problems then start back up when we give the "All's good " signal, but it goes on, and for me this is a victory. I muddled through even when I just wanted to bury my head in the sand, and just give in to my evil twin that loves to indulge herself in those things that only drag her down. Amidst all the angst in my life, at this moment, I am glad I have chosen to focus on the one thing I can make right.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Day Thirty-Nine

The Big Cheat!
I know we are allowed 35 extra points a week, but it still seems like a cheat to me. I am losing slow without using them so it makes me nervous when I do. So yesterday I used 4 extra points and 6.5 today. So we will see, I need to slow it down and try to not use any more extra points this week. Well I kept telling myself they are only 2 points , but as you can see 2x5 =10 points.
I must keep reminding myself this is not a cheat, this is not a cheat, this is not a Big Cheat.
It is life.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Day Thirty-Eight

Gonna take a break today, I hope everyone has a great day. Do your best.....

<-------- My Mom, My Sister and My Nieces.