Day Fifty-Six

I am feeling better today, but after my coughing plague left my body, it left my chest muscles so sore I could only manage a brisk walk today. I feel really good about this week because despite me being on vacation and getting sick when I got back home. I managed to not gain any weight. I didn't lose, but I didn't gain. This is really big for me because every since I was a little girl I would eat when I was sick. Some people just get turned off by food when they are sick, but not me. It has always been a constant comfort to me. This week I did not splurge, or go over my planned meals.

Fifty-Six days, I can do this.

Day Fifty-Five

I just watched Oprah and she had different people on from the Biggest Loser. I have not had a very good day today, being sick is no fun, I thought this my pull me out of the doldrums . My husband and I listened to these people talk about how the weight loss had changed their life. Then the Losers that had gained back some of their weight came on and each one said that losing the weight was the easy part. Keeping it off was the hard part. I have always known this to be true, but it really hit me in my gut when I saw these people that I invited into my home each week. That is me. I have lost weight plenty of times, a couple of times I really looked good, but I never felt like I was free from this demon that kicks my butt all the time. I think my problem has always been about losing weight, not living healthy. I know I have to cut my portions down, get out and move, give my body the nutrients it needs and then live my life, and fit it all together. This is my goal.

Day Fifty-Four

Back to normal, sort of. I came home with a cold and I am not really up to doing my my shred today, so I decided to try the push up thing again. I thought maybe I was just doing something wrong, but no, its still very hard for me. Clearly this is one I am really in need of, as soon as I quit coughing my lungs up I am going to do it again.

My brain says, starve a fever, feed a cold, feed a headache, feed a sore throat, feed a cough. My heart says come on you love yourself more than that. Hang on, and so NyQuil here I come. cough cough!

Dat 49,50,51, 52 and 53

Wipe Out is not just a Television show, it is what can happen in just 5 short days. It didn't happen to me though. I didn't eat like I normally do, I didn't pass on the dessert, but only one time at one meal and yes I tried almost all of the yummy desserts. Vacations happen and I am going to encounter times like this, so my plan is to just jump back in tomorrow and eat healthy. I have a short week this week so I will try to catch up sometime this week, plan my menu and get out and Walk.


In a moment of complete madness I bought this DVD. I am afraid it will be the death of me. I don't think I could have done this when I was young and in shape, but I am going to give it all I have. It may take me a year to get to 5 push ups (who knew those were so hard, they look so easy) but I will not give up. I had a wonderful time with my family, we played badminton and I landed on my butt, we laughed, had good food and made lots of great memories.