Friday, August 21, 2009

Post it!

When we first began having International students stay in our home while they were studying English at our university, I would put post it notes all over the house. On the mirror, on the door, on the refrigerator. The notes were just words written in English. They knew what a door was, and a mirror, but remembering how to say it in English was not easy. It made it easier to remember what they already knew. It dawned on me the other day, that I knew what to do to maintain my healthy lifestyle, but sometimes, I need to be reminded. So these are my post it notes.
I think I'm tired, I am tired. I worked all day, most of it sitting at my desk. I walk or exercise during my breaks, and lunch, but when I get home I just want to sit down and do more of what I did all day. Sit! I know I need to move a little but I just can't seem to remember to do it. When I was younger my mom used to tell me to go to school, and if I felt bad after I got there I could come home. I never did. The same goes for exercising, when I start it, I enjoy it. I feel better. I don't quit.

I am usually my own worst enemy. I am the only one that look fat in that...I can't believe you ate that...Why are you so lazy... The truth is most of the time I am doing good. Most of the time I feel good about myself. The problem is I do still hear that voice that says those negative things, I probably always will, so I will have to remind myself, until it is second nature. I may even have to make another post it that says DON'T IGNORE THE POST-ITS.....

Thursday, August 20, 2009

I danced!

Yes I did.

I had my hair highlighted!

I made it through a busy work day.

I talked to an old friend ( she isn't old). I miss her.

I found out someone I love is going to have a boy!

I walked with my husband, not far but it was a walk.

I danced, yes I did. I danced while I sat at my desk, when I was waiting for the color to set in my hair, and in my heart I danced.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Sometimes I want to dance....

I don't want to deal with the problems that always seem to find me...I want to dance
I don't want to get an invitation to everyone's problems......I want to dance
I don't want to think about the mistakes that I have made....... I want to dance
I don't want to think about an uncertain future...... I want to dance

I don't' want to.....but sometimes I have too. I hate it when my pretend life get interrupted by any of the above. My favorite saying is:

"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass......It's about learning to dance in the rain."

I want to dance, even when my heart is broken, or even if I am frustrated by seeing someones life that is in ruin. I want to deal with my life, my choices with honesty, not pretending that everything is ok, and later realize that I have broken my pretender. I always try to fix things in my life so that I can function at my best. When everything is in its place, I can pretend that all is well. When I can't fix it, I eat, I cry, I have a hard time motivating myself. I don't want to wait, so tomorrow I will dance. I will!

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Like eating in a Mexican Restaurant

I felt like I was eating in a Mexican restaurant today, and I made it myself. Yum, so good this recipe gets a 4 star rating. It was cheesy, and spicy and very filling.

Baked Tostado
1 tostado shell
2 T. Salsa
1oz. lean cooked ground beef
¼ cup rice
¼ cup black beans
¼ cup green enchilada sauce
2 oz. 2% cheese
Layer the items on the Tostado shell using the green enchilada sauce then cheese last. Bake covered for 20 minutes, then uncover for last 5 minutes.
Very good.

I served it with black beans and rice with just 1 Tablespoon grated cheese.